I’ve been sick lately and I had plans to write a new poem because thats something I normally do when I feel like crap but I couldn’t get around to it. (also why I’m late on a day of posting - I’ll post another poem later today) So heres ones that i still read to myself from time to time.
Dear - you,
I haven’t wrote to you in a while and I’m sorry
I’ve been so caught up in the angst of the world I forgot you came first
You’ve been waiting long enough to hear from me, haven’t you?
My anxiety has been getting the best of me, making me feel like I can’t let out my feelings
I’m afraid it’s to late for me
Afraid it’s to late for me to be who I’ve always wanted
Afraid I should just give in to the social norm that everyone thinks I should
Stay close to home
Stay with your mother
Stay quiet
Be just a teacher
Be just a wife
Be just a mother
I’ve recently begin to see what truly could be my future and I’m hesitant to want to it
Whoever created this illusion that we have to only search for happy endings is ridiculous
For so long I wanted this unrealistic and predetermined life style
Wake up, go to work, cook, clean, go to bed
Repeat
Wake up, go to work, cook, clean, go to bed
I never thought that was going to be something so utterly difficult to achieve
I’m still trying though
So much of who I want to be is clashing with so much of who I don’t want anything to do with
I hope this small token of what I’ve been thinking brings you ease that I have not forgot you
I hope it reminds you that I am still alive, trying to survive
I hope it helps you see life through my eyes one more time
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